Have you ever asked these 3 questions:

sitting on the porch after supper tonight my soul flooded with emotion

I had a lovely chat with a dear, dear friend today (actually I had two great chats in the garden center at the store today)

one of the conversations was with a precious woman who invested much of her soul into my soul at a very young age..She lead by example in love and total devotion to Lord AND she has the voice of the most beautiful songbird you’ve ever heard.  Today she was encouraging me with her excitement as we discussed the story God has called me to write.

I shared with her how very, very inadequate I feel to fulfill such a task.   That even with ALL of the unknowns and ALL of the uncertainties.. the risk of failing, being rejected, the what ifs – that I am more than absolutely certain that I must try.

the song OCEANS by Hillsong has been around for a little while but I’m usually late to the party so it’s new to me.

This song is the battle cry of my heart right now! I’m telling you it’s as if the writer of the song crawled into my head and heart and said, “tell me how you feel”.. the lyrics read my mail!

When the Day of Pentecost had fully come, they were all with one accord^[a] in one place.² And suddenly there came a sound from heaven, as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled the whole house where they were sitting. ³ Then there appeared to them divided tongues, as of fire, and one sat upon each of them. ⁴ And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.

I pondered their uncertainties.  Their questions.  Can you even begin to imagine 

the emotions, the assumptions, the “what’s going on here?” “what is this all about?”

so, what’s the point?

There’s LOTS & LOTS about this life that I can not reason with words.

Like why God calls us to do things that we are scared to death to do.

I ask God questions every.day.  lots of questions? Why do innocent people suffer?  why answer this prayer and not answer that one?  Is this prompting from you Lord or is it me?

Lots of things that have been explained and yet are still unexplained..

There’s so much I just.don’t. get. about this life-

that’s okay

What I do know and can tell you from experience  is that I serve the God of mystery.  I serve the risen Savior who is Sovereign over all.  He is the King of the just and the unjust, the rich and the poor.  He loves us- each and every one of us red and yellow black and white..  He is good and is working ALL things together for good.  He is trustworthy  and thankfully His ways are  higher than our ways

and that if by FAITH we will do our part: trust His leading, trust His calls and be obedient to the Holy Spirit

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let mewalk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

He will faithfully sustain us

He will never forsake us and never let us go

Father keep me faithful in spite of my fears.  May I honor You in all I think, say and do.

I am eternally grateful for your kindness and support here on the blog

love y’all so very much

PS here’s the song: ..you’re gonna fall in love and wanna LIVE BRAVE after you hear it