the sisters and I (NO MEN ALLOWED)
had a hen party
our topic of discussion:
and the challenges
of each new phase
which brings to mind
a statement I read from a friend today :
“no one can ever prepare you for parenthood…”
on any given day
make Cowboy Dan and I
laugh so hard our bellies hurt..
and so mad we want to SCREAM out loud..
and so PROUD we feel as though we may BURST
and even though
and some days
I just can’t fuss too long
before I find myself
nights I pleaded these words
Then [Hannah] made a vow and said, “O LORD of hosts, if You will indeed look on the affliction of Your maidservant and remember me, and not forget Your maidservant, but will give Your maidservant a male child, then I will give him to the Lord all the days of his life…”
1 Samuel 1:11
many, many nights
those exact word…
longing to be a mother
I shared in a post earlier this year
my first Mother’s Day
after we lost our little Samuel
at seventeen weeks.
I was SO sad.
We went to church with my mother that day.
A pastor friend was making announcements
& spoke briefly of mothers.
I remember thinking to myself
“not sure I am ready for this..”
and in that moment (lost in my pitiful thoughts)
I was taken by surprise as this friend of ours
now standing in front of me
handed me a rose and said “Happy Mother’s Day.”
the ugly cry
On the way home that day I prayed
“Lord, don’t let me forget”
the next year
with the news that we were expecting again
full of mixed emotions
we made it 24 weeks
before our daughter, Karson
just too small…
and choose to say
THANK YOU Father
for my ROWDY rascals
I am honored YOU
to be their
Ecc 3:1 For everything there is an appointed time, and an appropriate time for every activity on earth:3:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot what was planted; 3:3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; 3:4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance. 3:5 A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; 3:6 A time to search, and a time to give something up as lost; a time to keep, and a time to throw away; 3:7 A time to rip, and a time to sew; a time to keep silent, and a time to speak. 3:8 A time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.
Natasha Metzler says
What a beautiful post! Thank you for sharing your story and encouragement. May we all learn to celebrate the gifts we have, without growing angry or bitter over what we don’t.
Well said Natasha! Thanks for stopping by :O)Praying God will be glorified with our efforts of sharing His grace through our stories.
Hi! I’m part of the collective post with you at Royal Daughter. So nice to “meet” you! I know that must have been such a difficult time for you. I have been through a loss, and it was one of the most challenging, painful things that has ever happened to me. Your two little ones are beautiful – blessings to you!
Hi Amy! Thanks for stopping by. It’s nice “meeting” you as well. Praying God will be glorified and others will draw nearer to Him through our stories. I am humbled and honored to be a part of this collaboration.