as a child they hurt
and even worse as an adult
my youthful acts of rebellion were rebuked by my parents
their forms of discipline varied upon the severity of my offense
my remorse varied as well
the strong-willed child that I was…
as a teen
my rebellion, attitudes and arrogance -were even worse
some days, terrible
I apologize to my parents often, still to this day
but now that I’m all grown up those seasons of rebellion tucked safely in the past
all is well, or should be, right??
and yet, this week
I find myself broken over my attitudes, idle words, crudeness and irresponsible acts
and these hurt much worse than those of my youth
because now my rebellion isn’t directed towards my parents
but instead towards my Heavenly Father
in the past I’ve made lots of excuses
justified my acts time and time again
watering them down, comparing my “goodness” with the “goodness” of others
deep down knowing the Spirit within me was
I ignored the gentle nudges, shushing it, carrying on just as I pleased
asking for forgiveness, sometimes
and yet, not nearly enough
but this season
I don’t want to “shush” it
instead I desperately want to hear what the
“still small voice” has to say
“Follow God’s example in everything you do, because you are His dear children..”
I’m not justifying my acts instead I’m questioning my faithfulness
“For though your hearts were once full of darkness, now you are full of light from the Lord, and your behavior should show it.”
a thought struck me yesterday
God never “clocks out” on us
so what gives us the right to live for Him on Sunday or Wednesdays or on retreat or at VBS
when we’re dressed pretty & polished and then live as we please on
the fact of the matter is that
He holds our very next breath in His hand
there is no “my time” “His time” when it comes to our relationship and representation of the Lord
if we claim His name
we should honor Him with every
breath, attitude and action
when we are alone, with family or our very best friends
I recently read
“We should not take witnessing lightly-it is a matter of life and death.”
it’s that serious.
we know not the hour of His return
we just know He’s coming back.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again
I desperately want Him to say “well done thy good and faithful servant”
the sense of urgency
to BE DIFFERENT
SET APART from the ways of the world
is heavy on my heart
please join me
A CALL TO REMAIN FAITHFUL
to be careful not to become so much like the world that no one can tell who you are or what you believe
influence them for Christ —
considering what your life speaks to those around you
without a word spoken
is this easy? no.
is it possible? yes.
will changes be necessary? probably..
will the change(s) hurt? they may.
do it anyway.
“And now, all glory to God who is able to keep you from stumbling, and who will bring you into his glorious presence innocent of sin with great joy. All glory to Him, who alone is God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord.”
love and blessings,