another cliche’ proven true
” good things come to those who wait”
“mourning may go on through the night but joy comes in the morning” was the verse the Lord gave me just after I found out we were expecting…
Tucker Wayne was our third pregnancy. I was scared out of my mind yet peaceful at the same time. I was thrilled and cautiously reserved.
My heart longed for children. Some days it ached. I pleaded Hannah’s vow found in Samuel …
“Oh Lord, if you will indeed look on and remember me..and give me a child then I will give him to you all the days of his life…”
I meant every word.
I began to show signs of premature labor just over 20 weeks was admitted to a hospital about an hour and a half from home. They monitored me for a week. The longest week of my life to date. The final prognosis- a small surgical procedure to help support the pregnancy, a shot of progesterone in my hip once a week, see my local doctor once a week & strict bed rest until term.
I followed doctors orders for the next 26 weeks..
I’ve mentioned before but it’s worth noting again.. during my time at home -waiting on Tuck is when the head knowledge of my Savior REALLY gripped my heart.
I had sang about the Lord, attended church weekly, taught and directed Vacation Bible School & Sunday school my whole life.
I knew Jesus.
but I didn’t know Him then like I do now.
Each day that I woke up and found Tuck ok I praised the Lord and thanked Him for one more day! I pleaded for Him to sustain Tucker. “Keep him safe Lord so that I may give him back to you”. I stayed in the Psalms. Lots and lots of days I was scared and nervous so I cried out like David did “HELP ME LORD..YOU ALONE ARE MY REFUGE & MY STRENGTH.”
and He did. My Savior sustained Tucker. At 38 weeks and one day, on April 14th 2006 My Savior who had bent down from Heaven and heard & answered my daily prayers introduced me to a love I had never known.
When I FINALLY held the child we had BEGGED our Savior for I WAS INFINITELY changed. My heart felt as though it would burst with JOY & RELIEF!!!
When at last I saw Tucker’s little, quivering, dimpled chin …I wept.
Jason wept. Everybody wept. Tears of joy.
Tucker is the community’s baby. Everybody prayed for this baby… God heard our prayers.
Each year as it nears his birthday I am almost overtaken with gratitude and feel like I should thank each person I see that prayed for him, for us.
Tucker taught me the vitality of a DAILY DEPENDENCE on the Lord.
Tucker taught me to apply Psalm 50: 15..”Call upon the Lord in the day of trouble and I will rescue you and you will give me glory.”
The Lord revealed to me through Tucker a LOVE I had never known. and still as Tucker grows and changes and is learning more and more about the Savior of the World, his Creator–to love like his Savior-I am falling in love with the Lord all. over. again.
I am so eternally thankful God chose me to mother this child. The one with the deep “farmer voice” .. who loves tractors and dirt and fishing. The one who has a heart for the needy and less fortunate. The little “old soul” who told his daddy last week that when he grows up he’s going to “live without power and cook over a fire outside” and he’s excited about it!
I told J after that comment about living without power that the Lord’s just getting started with this little guy. When I heard about that discussion the Lord tapped at my heart and I asked J..
what if this little fella that we begged for and promised the Lord we would dedicate to Him grows up with a heart to serve the less fortunate and is called to a place where there is no power? and that as a 7 year old he’s already ready to live a life of sacrifice for the sake of the One who created him???
but what do I know.? I’m just his momma. right?