I can hardly believe it
she’s NINE today! NINE. YEARS. OLD
“baby Kate” isn’t a baby anymore
many of us have children we are close to
it’s a given to say that I cherish my boys
“they are precious in His sight..” and mine
well Kate’s EXTRA special to me & uncle JJ
I’m a planner
strong type A personality
my plan: college degree, get hired to teach, marry, tenure in my position, have a house full of children and live happily ever after
there’s what actually happened:
I married Cowboy Dan a year into college, was hired two weeks prior to graduating, tenured upon completion of my third year, struggled with infertility for four LONG years and then
we were expecting
hopeful of the happily ever after..
add to our excitement the news of sister banker finding out she was UNEXPECTEDLY expecting!
we were less than 8 weeks apart!
I was EXSTACTIC! she was numb with SHOCK.
she and her hubs had not anticipated how quickly their GOOD NEWS would come..first month off the pill!
I still refer to her often as FERTILE MYRTLE!
all was well with the world
I woke early one morning a day shy of 17 weeks not feeling so well
I called my doctor
shared my symptoms
the nurse encouraged me to come in, just to be sure
Love was working from home
I called him up from the barn and we were on our way
my doctor’s office was an hour away
half way there
while lying in the back seat
I broke the silence with “this isn’t going to end well”
the doctors did their best to reassure me
my heart telling me a conflicting story
the next several hours
it didn’t end well.
our precious, perfect baby boy
born too early.
by His grace
I was at peace
sister, was not
my thoughts and prayers immediately shifted to her and the well being of her little miracle still growing inside
the weeks and months following
tough on all of of us
our family is close
and though…”weeping may go on through the night, joy comes in the morning..” Psalm 30:5
the call came midday
“it’s time. They’re admitting me.” she said
“I’m on my way!”
and just a few hours later
we met her and held her for the very first time
was the name she was given
named after me and sister nurse
“Baby Kate” was perfect
and pink and precious
all of our joy
each moment spent with her
like a soothing serum
out of her first 365 days
Uncle JJ and I saw her 363
and haven’t missed many since
a servant’s heart
thoughtful and merciful like her mother
sassy and spicy like her Aunt
I’m crazy about her
love her like my own
now, forever and always