they swept the leaves off, I swiped down the cobwebs and lastly we checked for critters that may have homesteaded underneath before we wheeled the ol’ treadmill in from the porch. The boys cranked it up and let it purr a few minutes while I threw myself a pep rally in my closet.
Three years this ago this April I ran my very first and last 5K. I don’t say that to boast- it’s pathetic really= how totally and completely out of shape I am. It’s. Bad. A couple of nights ago I was basking in the steam of a pot of chicken n’ dumplins’ I’d been workin’ on when I began to feel a bit flush. Cowboy Dan had just come in from the barn when I asked, “do I look flush or red to you? I think I’ve gotten too close or too excited about the dumplins’..”
“Yes you look flush.”
We sat down I took a few deep breaths. Felt really wacky and weird (much more so than normal) and decided I’d cruise on over to sister banker’s house and borrow her blood pressure cuff. Turned out my blood pressure that usually runs very low was SCARILY high. She is a gifted mercy and began serving me the minute I walked in…She had me down a couple bottles of water, had lifted her windows and a cool fan blowing directly on me within minutes. It came down a bit, I borrowed the cuff and headed on back home all the way scolding myself.
AS IF I didn’t know that drinking coffee loaded with delicious Hazelnut or French Vanilla creamer until 1ish or 2ish everyday wouldn’t catch up with me?!
AS IF it was fine that I hadn’t drank a sip much less a bottle of water in I couldn’t tell you when?!
AS IF being less active than I’ve been in over a decade wouldn’t invite a multitude of unwanted health problemss?!?
AS IF I’m immortal.
I’m NOT and neither are you. SO WHY DO WE DO THINGS WE KNOW WE SHOULDN’T and NOT DO THINGS WE KNOW WE SHOULD Y’ALL?!?!?
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
See why we need grace.? I’m no good without His grace.
and it’s by His grace that I did not die last night as I danced AS IF I were Kevin Bacon from Footloose while on the treadmill. My body is mad at me today but tomorrow by His grace and through His strength I’m going to get back on…
Kathleen Esperdy says
Can i get a witness? When we have that epiphany or “ahha” moment, I for one have figured out that it is in our genes to push like we are invincible. It was quite the revelation for me to realize Im not as I was. I have slowed down, lost some of my “edge”, some of the steam that I thought defined who I was. I had someone point out to me that Im not the same. Hummm trying to figure that out as I feel the same but then I realized, yes…. I am the same. I have my faith, Gods word that I am who he is in me. I am not the same because I now have The Fathers guidance rather than my own will. This is hard for me being a strong woman who always thought that I needed to be in control. Finding that Im far from being in control was at first scary but now comforting. It is all in Gods plan for me, my relinquishing my need to be in control is still a struggle, but I have learned that if I dont abide by my Fathers will, he will get my attention, as he did you. I had a massive stroke at 40, but His grace He brought me through. He had given me several warnings before He felt the need to stop me in my tracks. This is where my testimony began, that was in 1990. He is trying to get your attention. You have a mission for Him, He has anointed you for a purpose. Your family, your children, your friends will be touched by you and all that you do now and in the future. God talks to me in my quiet time, He shows me light when I pray for you., I am an intercessor, I will always be in prayer. You are precious in His eyes, take care of yourself, he has appointed you to do much. You are blessed.
Linda Reed Burgess says
couldn’t agree with you more. Amen Sister..
Tammy Lacey says
I am your biggest cheerleader Karmen! Exercising makes feel good! We are meant to move and you can do this! You could have a free personal trainer if you ask!
Love you! Tammy